Tag: pain

Permission to Stop, Drop and Fall Apart

There is something surprisingly undramatic about the moments in which we realize we are going to let go. The moments in which we say, No to the places, people or pastimes that…

It Is Not the Storm That Slays Me

I saw you today. The dark clouds gave way to thunder and when the lightning chaser sparked up the sky, I saw your silhouette. I'm not sure how many days…

Our Symphony Has Stopped. A Letter to My Lost Love

Here I am, on the other side of everything we fought to get through. And here you aren't. Our love has sat on a dusty shelf for thousands of hours…

Dear Stomach Hanging Over My Jeans: You Are Awesome

In 2009 my body was a bit of a mess. I’d had an acute attack of pancreatitis which had left me hospitalised and drained and hot on the heels of…

When the Demons Come a Calling

Depression tastes like February. It’s cold and bleak. When the fog descends it feels as though the mist of despair has settled in for the long haul. It’s hard to imagine that…

The Way of the Female Warrior

The female warrior roams the lands of each earth. She knows the hue of every sky and she’s felt the tears of countless raging storms. She knows the barren land…

The Splinters Within: When Depression Divides A Family

Depression is the creeping ivy of the mind. It scales walls and winds around windows. Its grip is clinging and clutching and its dark leaves cast shadows on even the brightest…

What I Know at 40 That I’d Tell Myself at 20

Picture yourself in your mind's eye twenty years ago. Who do you see? What shaped your world at that time? If you could go back to that instant, what would…