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Think of the Brand! (And Other Ridiculous Rules That Make Me Want to Drink a Vat of Wine)

It's been a while.  And recently I've been wondering if it would be longer still before I sent another newsletter. Or if I would even send another one at all.…

12 Mantras for Creating Courage

Courage comes in many forms. Some days we feel like the world is our arena and our courage seems to come so easily. Other times, it’s harder to come by.…

15 Things I Have Learned (or Remembered) in the Last 48 Hours

1.  Grief reveals us. It strips the skin from us and shows us who we are without the day to day adornments that we layer up with. It also shows…

The Highlight Reel: Why We Believe in the Dream Lives of Others

A few years ago, my then-partner came home one day to tell me that two of our friends, a couple who seemingly had everything together, had split up. I remember…

Is it Useful, Beautiful or Joyful?

Some years ago I read a quote from Regina Brett: “Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful”. The words formed part of a list of life lessons…

I Am Dreaming of All the Things

I am dreaming. Of all the things. The things They said I couldn't have, couldn't be. And yet I can and I do have them. See me here? Having the…

There Are 206 Bones in My Body

There are 206 bones in my body. There are 206 names for those bones. Names I don't know, or barely know. The bare bones of me are my words and…

You Are Everything You Need to Remember

I was six years old when I learned that I could escape into stories and immerse myself in a make-believe world which existed within bound pages of print. I was…

The Light of This Morning

Winter feels like a lover that cannot leave. Claiming a stake on the last days of its seasonal affair. The light of this morning has found me with a head…

Remembering Me: The Unshakeable Core of Creativity

When a year opens with the death of David Bowie it’s fair to assume that it’s going to be a rocky road ahead. In 2016 it felt like the hits…

The Skin I Used to Live In

The skin I used to live in was stretched so tightly over me.  Stifling.  Suffocating.  Silencing.  But they liked me in that skin They supported me in that skin I…

What Actually Happened

"What actually happened was that he was urinating".   These were the words that were said by the male NYPD officer standing in front of me. I stared back at…

What I Discovered About Myself in the Eyes of Strangers

When was the last time that you felt truly held? When did you last feel like you could unfurl and unravel amongst the safety of strangers? I'm not sure that…

A Shout out to All Those Struggling with Body Image

I recently shared the photo above on my social media feeds. They are before and after pics with a slightly different slant. Before: Weight low. Self-esteem lower. Obsessed with how…

Lessons Learned from an Ancient Spirit in a Modern World

My mind cannot recall the memories. But my skin does. My body holds each experience like collected treasures from so many lifetimes ago. The lines and crevices in my hands…

Demons Are a Girl’s Best Friend

A couple of weekends ago I went food shopping and, along with the other groceries, I bought a big bar of chocolate. When I picked it up in the store…

A Story of Self Acceptance (Notes from a Woman Who Made Her Own Rules)

  “It is not the critic who counts”. How many times have I read those words from Theodore Roosevelt? How many times have I repeated them? And yet, recently I’d…

Look for the Lighthouses in Your Life

There is something about lighthouses that soothes me. They offer guidance and safety. They signal hope and home. And so often recently, I keep thinking that's all we are trying…

Permission to Stop, Drop and Fall Apart

There is something surprisingly undramatic about the moments in which we realize we are going to let go. The moments in which we say, No to the places, people or pastimes that…

4am and Other Reluctant Friendships

4am is my newly found acquaintance. One that I was never interested in making. She's as punctual as they come. Every morning, right on time. And even though I've assured…

My Husband Is a Black Man. My Husband Is a Target.

My husband comes over to kiss me goodbye before leaving the apartment to go to a photography shoot. "Be careful out there" I say to him. As he shuts the…

Let the Moments Seize You

"You know how everyone's always saying seize the moment? I don't know, I'm kinda thinking it's the other way around. You know, like the moment seizes us." That's one of…

It Is Not the Storm That Slays Me

I saw you today. The dark clouds gave way to thunder and when the lightning chaser sparked up the sky, I saw your silhouette. I'm not sure how many days…

Humanity Is Hurting. It Is Time That Love Wins.

I do not pretend to understand a world in which guns and rapists are acceptable but love between same sex couples is deemed "wrong". "Wrong" is the fact that whilst…

To the Man Who Asked Me If I Swallow

A few days ago, as I was walking from the subway to my apartment, I was stopped by a man who began speaking to me. I had my headphones in…

The Women Who Said Yes to Themselves

Warrior woman, I see you. I see you every day. I see you as you walk past me on the street, weaving through crowded avenues, your feet sinking into the…

An Invitation to Listen to Your Intuition

We get so caught up on following the "right people". This is often based on the number of followers that person/company/cause already has. "Oh, they must be good because 2…

Meditations for the Mind That Won’t Shut Up 

I remember being in India five years ago. I was traveling from place to place and volunteering as I went but I was also exploring my own spiritual journey. More…

Do Not Dilute Your Joy

A while back I read a post written by a woman who was sharing her happiness at her one year anniversary with her husband.  Amongst the congratulatory comments, someone had…

Things I Know Today: I Am Scared and I’m Alive

Last month was a tough cash flow challenge. Skating on such thin financial ice is not something I enjoy. It's not something I enjoy sharing, either. And yet here I…

Our Symphony Has Stopped. A Letter to My Lost Love

Here I am, on the other side of everything we fought to get through. And here you aren't. Our love has sat on a dusty shelf for thousands of hours…

Lover, You Cannot Keep Me

There, in your eyes, I just caught your nakedness. The swiftest second of a truth that can only ever come from our irises and never our lips. I saw the…

Girl, It’s OK If Your Balls Drop

My balls dropped this week. I kid you not. The juggling act that I'd been congratulating myself on perfecting, suddenly turned into a bad sidewalk show. You know this act…

Kisses of Torn Truth. The Seduction of a Creative Storm

  I am feeling thorny today. My soul, not so gently, nudged me awake too early, wanting attention, demanding food. It has a voracious appetite for rich morsels and a…

The Burn of the Creative Torch: Notes from a Fired Up Writer

I got all fired up this week. Maybe there was some full moon crazy going on, maybe my inner Leo needed to do some roaring or perhaps my heart just…

Can You Set Yourself Alight With True Life?

Can you climb out of your mind and seep into the pit of your soul, catching the echoes that come back at you. Can you let the need fall away…

Dear Stomach Hanging Over My Jeans: You Are Awesome

In 2009 my body was a bit of a mess. I’d had an acute attack of pancreatitis which had left me hospitalised and drained and hot on the heels of…

When the Demons Come a Calling

Depression tastes like February. It’s cold and bleak. When the fog descends it feels as though the mist of despair has settled in for the long haul. It’s hard to imagine that…

Finding My Tribe, And Coming Home to Myself

Birth to 38. I was on the outside. Looking in. My face pressed up against the glass. My fingers leaving telltale smudges that spoke of longing. Of wanting to be…

Namaste, but No

There’s a quote that I often see doing the rounds on the Internet that says, ‘Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Be kind. Always.’ You…

Why I’m Good Enough Exactly As I Am (And So Are You)

“When one is pretending the entire body revolts.” ~Anaïs Nin I’ve lost count of the number of articles I’ve seen informing me that as somebody who regularly works from home,…

I Am Speaking for Myself

My voice is my weapon in this world. It is also my olive branch. It is my sword raised. It is my hand held out. It is my door closed.…

Shine Your Own Light and Let Go of Envy

“As we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence actually liberates others.” ~Marianne…

How to Reclaim Your Power and Step Into the New Year Like a Boss

A calendar year ending is often a time of reflection and resolve. Assessing what didn't work out and feeling proud of what did. Getting inspired about new adventures and setting…

For All The Women Who Came Before Me

Long before my beating heart emerged into this lifetime, the earth felt the footfall of countless other warrior women who came before me. Too few of their stories made the…

Until We Are Impossible to Ignore

The wild moon watches over the world with lashes heavy with tears. She sends out a soundless plea for an awakening. For every pair of eyes that stop to gaze…

10 Things I Want to Know About You (And 10 Things I Don’t)

Turning forty is something that is remarked upon often in our society. It's an age that is associated as a pivotal point. A definitive year. Yet most of the conversations…

Forever Friendships: These Too Shall Pass

There is nothing quite like the feeling we get when we stumble across someone who gets our weirdness and craziness and doesn't judge our crankiness. They understand our dreams and…

Between Now and Next

I'm between now and next.  I haven't arrived at my new destination but I've already departed my last location. I've made the jump but I haven't quite landed. I'm suspended…

Dear Fear – You Are Not Welcome at My Party

What have you worried about today? What undesirable thoughts have you allowed yourself to dwell on? I recently took a trip to the beach and as I was walking along…

The Creative Call and What It Means to Honour It

  Come, let me take you on a journey. It’s a journey into the depths of who you are. It’s a new path, yet it is hauntingly familiar. Come now,…

Who Cares What They Think? (Why You Don’t Need to Fit In)

When was the last time you felt as though you didn’t fit in? As though you were on the outside looking in at everyone else? Maybe it was when you…

The Words I Wish I’d Known Then (a Letter to the Child I Once Was)

These are the words I wish I’d had whispered to me, many moons ago. When I saw a stray dog on the street that I went home and cried for.…

Who Have You Judged Today?

Who do you think the person standing next to you in the coffee line is? Who do you think the teenager that just raced past you in the street is?…

Why I’m Saying No to Worry (and Hell Yes to Freedom and Cellulite)

If you totalled up the time that you’ve spent worrying about things in your lifetime, how much time do you think that might amount to? How many hours spent stressing…

The Way of the Female Warrior

The female warrior roams the lands of each earth. She knows the hue of every sky and she’s felt the tears of countless raging storms. She knows the barren land…

Let’s Wear Wild {Poem}

Let’s run away And taste the clouds We’ll dream the moon And dance the waves Let’s lose our minds And forget our fears We’ll live the nights The endless stars…

10 Ways That Wild Hearts Live Free

Each day and every night there are souls that brim with beauty under the light of the sun, moon and stars. They hear the earth call for their contribution and…

Lest We Forget: Living With Alzheimer’s

What would you tell the world whilst you can still remember? What gifts would you give? Most of us can't begin to imagine a time when our minds might betray…

Depression or Suppression? Where Do The Silent Screams Go?

I often feel like there should be a room, a safe place, where the broken people can go when it's all too much. Where we can just fall apart. Burst…

The Splinters Within: When Depression Divides A Family

Depression is the creeping ivy of the mind. It scales walls and winds around windows. Its grip is clinging and clutching and its dark leaves cast shadows on even the brightest…

The Female Creative and What It Means To Love Her

  Who is she, this rebellious, creative creature that refuses to play by the rules?   She is the chameleon that catches your eye. She is each hue of the…

15 Mantras for Fierce Females

In honor of fierce females everywhere. These are for you: 1) Know your worth. Know every drop of the wonder that you are. Don't discard the parts that are tainted and…

Bulimia Is a Bitch: Losing Control and Finding Freedom

  I remember an ex-boyfriend once saying to me that eating disorders were born of vanity. He believed that it was the desire to look good that drove image obsessed…

The Taboo That Still Surrounds The Aging Woman

Vintage wine is savored. Vintage cars exclaimed over. Vintage clothes coveted. Yet the vintage woman remains uncelebrated.  From the moment we are born society sets expectations of us. We are…

To Be In Her Skin

Being in her skin feels like honesty. The scars of a life laid bare. Tales of her years showcased there on the wrapper that holds her life.  It's a place…

I Will Not Hide

I will not hide who I am Who I was born to be Just because it blots your landscape I will not mute my colours Or dim my light Just…

I Flirt With Demons {Poem}

Me I fly too close to the sun Drawn to its warmth Blinded by the light Desperately seeking The illumination Of a new dawn A stunning brightness A better day…

When You Find Him

  When you find him you will understand why you didn't settle for the others that you found before. Why you couldn't stay. Why they had to leave.  When you…

What I Know at 40 That I’d Tell Myself at 20

Picture yourself in your mind's eye twenty years ago. Who do you see? What shaped your world at that time? If you could go back to that instant, what would…

If {Poem}

  If I lay With lions Will the roar Inside my head Cease To a low rumbling That I can learn To accept Without fear If I dive Into the…

The Dream That Life Forgot {Poem}

She had kept the best china In the cupboard  Safely stored For the perfect moment  That never came  Dust covered dreams Long forgotten by life  The bitter pill Of the…

Her Caged Heart {Poem}

  There had been a mix up she felt When her body had been molded She wasn't meant to stay static Footfall her only movement She was fated to fly…

To Fall Or To Fly {Poem}

You will find me there At the bleeding edge Deserted of reason Devoid of thought I will see you there At the fringe of fear By the verge of sense…

The Reminders Of Her Life

  I see her there in front of me. Her eyes are slightly red. She hasn’t been crying but she looks tired, weary almost. She stares back at me, her…

Are You Hiding From Life? (Notes from an Introvert)

I hang out in coffee shops. A lot. A cliché of the biggest kind as a writer, but a fact nonetheless. I’m also an introvert (cliché number two) and if…

Tell Me {Poem}

  Tell me, do you know sorrow like me Are there shadows in your heart Where pain hides Where shame takes shelter Do your footsteps leave an imprint Of a…

Beautiful Blur {Poem}

Can I stay here awhile Can I crawl into the shadows And let darkness cover the wounds That are open and raw  Can I hide here awhile Can I pause…

The Broken Brilliance of A City

After a long, protracted and somewhat painful process, I am finally leaving London to live in New York. After almost 40 years of residing in one of the most amazing…

Why Now Is Our Time

“Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?” ~ Mary Oliver. I have a slight fascination at present with the concept of…

My Name Is Adrian

  I'm in New York. I'm sitting in a coffee shop staring out of the window, watching life in all its forms go by. In the street outside, just to…

Where The Wild Things Go {Poem}

 I want to forget What I am compelled to remember The lies born from imaginations That are not mine I want to take my faded hopes My jaded heart And leave…

Which Way Is Next?

"What do you want to be when you grow up?” I can’t remember the age I was when I was first asked that question but I’m fairly certain that my…

The Words

Ever since I can remember the words have been there. Right from the start. They were there on laminate strips in an old cigar tin that I brought home from school…

The Way She Was

In 1921 Winston Churchill was appointed Colonial Secretary, Ivy Williams became the first woman to become a member of the English Bar and King George V opened Southwark Bridge in…